I am not myself? I am?

(to-be-continue-part 2)

有时候，我真的不知道我是谁。不过，有时候，我觉得我很像小草。

小草是一个生命力很强并不怕风吹，不怕日晒，不怕雨打。连儿歌也唱着：“大风起，把头摇一摇- - - - - -大雨来，弯着背让雨浇”。俗语说：“野火烧不尽，春风吹又生”，就是指小草那不躯不挠的精神。

小草虽然有着令人佩服的精神，但却没有人知道小草背后令人流泪的伤心事。小草觉得自己没什么用处。生长在路边的小草还没那么惨。要是生在某家后院的盆栽旁就遭了。不被放在眼里就算了，还会很快的被铲除。日子就了,公路要阔建，路边的小草也被铲走了。现在只剩下森林可以容下一些比较幸运的小草。但在过一些日子后，政府要盖大楼，开发了树林。大树被翻种了，小草并没有。

小草虽然有着一点让人佩服的东西，但却没有人把他放在眼里，甚至就要到了一个连容身之地也没有了的地步。那，小草，他还会有目标，梦想。但他还会一直有要追求目标和梦想的斗志吗？

一个以经没有斗志去追求目标和梦想的小草 上

<<静思语>>

<<静思语>>

欢喜 和 感恩 是消除 烦恼的力量。

I am not myself? I am?

I am not myself now. I don't know who am i now. Sometimes, i feel that i'm a book. I'm in a good place known as library. But, i'm packed among other books. Covering with glass on the shelf, having little air to breath with.

Some people will probably thinking that i'm insane now. U can always just press alt + F4 anytime if you are not interested on this.

I'm packed among other people of a kind right now, facing plenty of stress. I have some knowledge on me, just like a book. But, not everyone came to this library read this book.

Even worse, after someone read that book, they drawing all over that book or even tearing out pages from the book. Just like now, someone keep asking me to do those things that i don't want to, andit hurts my feelings. Please stop asking me doing all the things that i don't wanted.

When can i get out of all these...
(to-be-continue)

Written with sincere. Thanks for reading.

QUOTE OF THE DAY

QUOTE OF THE DAY

When something goes down,
don't be upset,
because there is an equally proportional thing is going up.

There's Something Going Up Whenever There's Something Going Down...

As you all can see, days remaining towards SPM is going down, and the books on my desk is going up.
Many of us facing SPM had started to felt bored of revision books and exercise books. SPM also had starting to made me speechless. Don't know what to say about SPM.

Anyone has a good description for SPM ? Well I have some.
>SPM is good for us, but is bad for us too.
>SPM is useful in future but useless in future too.
>SPM made us worried, but people around the one that taking SPM is more worried then those who are taking SPM.

I don't know what other people thinking right now, but i'm really hoping that SPM will reach and end faster. I'm really sick of books, and sick of my mom keep asking me to read books.

Thanks for reading.
Many more great post coming soon.
Good luck in SPM everyone.

<<静思语>>

<<静思语>>

纷乱的心田，
开不出智慧的花朵。

When There's Sorrows, There's Joy...

Todays, there is sorrow and joy in my house.

SORROW PART
I suppose to fetch my sister back from school at 6.45pm, because her school off on 6.50pm. As you can see, the clock at my house was 6.48pm. I went out late 3minutes only. It should be ok, not a big problem.
Unfortunately, just on that time, the clock in my house was run out of battery. Its about 7.15pm when i went out, but the clock displayed 6.48pm. So I'm late to fetch my sister. And she was quite emotional that time. Cause she study till late night yesterday, and wake up early this morning. So, she was in a bad mood, and when we reached home on 7.30pm, she cried a little.

JOY PART
Everyone in the house was laughing. cause everytime also we waiting for her. When going out, she always have something to do, like go toilet la, drink water la, eat sweet la, etc etc... Finally now is the time for her to wait. Hehe...^^ Only can said that she was really "dai sei" Haha ^^

The Feelings Back...

My feelings to study finally came back again.

I starting to do additional mathematics in class. But its a good thing at least. Cause exams is around the corner.

Hope my parents will give me more support on this.

<<静思语>>

<<静思语>>

改变别人，
不如先改变自己。

In Training of Being Last Man On Earth

SPM coming soon, who on earth don't know that.

Yet, everyone still hanging out with friends, still seeing movies in cinema, going night market, playing computer games till late night and more. But it's a different story to me.

I really don't know why, why my mum not so agreed on doing these thing. Keep wanted me to study only. But,
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Mom,
Do u know that i'm starting to have communications problems with friends? The movies they talking about, i know non of it. When they talking about what they did during holidays, i got nothing to say. I just went out 2 times at night during the last holiday ( Hari Raya ). They went many places to play and "look see look see" , but i didn't, i couldn't go out, because i need to take care my stupid sister most of the time when hey go out. What have i done wrong? Why Cause of the SPM i need to be like now? I'm super boring at home, seeing my stupid sister. Now my home is like a cage to me, and my stupid sister is like a heavy load to me. She enjoys doing nothing, and i had to do almost everything she don't want.

Recently i was scolded by you, i heard what you said to my stupid sister when i'm in my bedroom. You said i was a "fei wu", what also don't know how to do, only know want to play computer, results so bad, after SPM can wait to eat s-h-i-t.

I was really sad that time. I felt that everything I done is wrong. Am i realy that useless? And how good is my results only considered good? What results you want me to get? Does the results meant everything? So, if i cheated in exams to get good results, then you will felt happy of it? Last time i was the 4th placing in class, you asked me to get 3rd placing next time. So when only you will be satisfied? What do you want me to do?
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Maybe, my mom know that the world's doom day is coming. So, she starts to train me to be the last man on earth. So that i can live and take care f myself when everyone esle are not there anymore.

<<静思语>>

<<静思语>>

把握当下，
就是用心。

I've tried my best...

Didn't write any post for a long time.
Because im trying to calm down and to control my emotions. Finally i managed to calm down.

Its all happened on last Thursday,
Account test paper, the subject i studied the hardest, and aim for quite high marks. But i didn't do well. Not because i didn't study, not because i did careless mistake. Its because i can't concentrate. The stupids malxys, at the Srx Setix, having singing contest while we having exams.

B-U-L-L- S-H-I-T-!!!

Their voices made till the hair of my hand all standing up. I can't think of anything during the exam. And im gaining more and more hatred on malxys. Some more say 1Malxysia. I think it should be 1Malxys.

I really hate them, its nothing personal, its just that hey made me hate them.

Thanks for reading. Rate it high ( if u can ) .

*notes:
*malxys should not be refered as malays.
*Srx Setix should not be refered as Sri Setia.
*Malxysia should not be refered as Malaysia.

<<静思语>>

<<静思语>>

太阳光大，
父母恩大，
君子量大，
小人气大。

Study vs No Study, Pass vs Fail...

One of my friends told me this i school during exams.

Aim: To study the relationship between studying and passing the exam.

First law of study
-->> Study = No fail [1]

From first law, we can get this equation -->> No study = Fail [2]

So we can conclude it as the following,

Study + No study = No fail + Fail
Study ( 1 + No ) = Fail ( 1 + No )
Study = Fail

Zzz....
So will you stil studying for exams ? Haha...

Thanks for reading^^

《静思语》

《静思语》

“路”必须去走方能达到，
“苦”必须去受才可消除。

First weekend of trial exam...

This morning, woke up on 10a.m. Mom and dad wasn't home. Just me and my stupiak sister.

I became a maid，〔男佣〕and a day-care〔保姆〕of my stupiak sister ( refer to the picture above ) for a day. I had to mop the floor, cook meals for her, fetch her here and there, tidy up the house and more.

Actually it wasn't that easy to take care of her and take care of the house. We really should appreciate our parents, especially our mother. Its not an easy job to take care us n\and the house for whole year long.

<<静思语>>

<<静思语>>

最好的脸部保养品，
就是微笑与善念。

Exam can be fun and easy...

Before i say anything,
I would like to to say thanks a lot to all those who sent exams tips to me, and other. You guys are the one makes other peoples' life easier. THANK YOU^^

Actually, you guys made less people to cheat during exams. Because, all of us already know what was the questions, and just memorize the answer and no need take take in notes or write it down on table. As a conclusion, tips for exams rocks ! ! !

<<静思语>>

<<静思语>>

再好的机会，福报，
如不能把握姻缘，
一样会溜走。

Merdeka...

Negaraku,
Finally, united for 52 years...
我爱我的国家，有家才有我，站在这里跟你... ...Ok ok, it's enough.

As a conjunction to national day, i will be using Bahasa Melayu for 1 post, just one.

Sebenarnya, saya amat cinta akan negara saya. Walapun saya tidak membeli barang buatan Malaysia, tidak ada bendera Malaysia berkibar-kibar di rumah saya, tetapi, sekurang-kurangnya, saya telah mengeposkan satu bendera Malaysia pada blog saya. Adakah sesiapa, terdapat benderan Malaysia berkibar di rumahnya? Lim beh rasa tak da la. Tapi tak pa la, perasaan cinta pada negara kita, ada dalam hati sudah cukup la. Haha...

Ribuan terima kasih kerana tuan sudi menuangkan masa untuk membaca pos ini.
Sekian, terima kasih.

Pork really is tasty...

"Ellow, i want curry... ... ... With pork."
"Er... ... ... ok boss."

Yesterday, i went dinner with my grandma at somewhere near Sungai Long. There was a dish i remember it the most.

> > > " 招牌加哩咸鱼花腩褒" < < <

It tastes just like rendang babi. Taste very good. A lot better then rendang ayam. If can, i think everyone, except Islam(s).

QUOTE OF THE DAY

QUOTE OF THE DAY

FAILING TO PLAN IS PLANNING TO FAIL.

Road not taken...

Road not taken...
by jus me, not by Robert Frost.

Ep.2
Title: Again... ( Final episode)

Well, just as the title said, again, she wants to break up with me again. She said its real again. And we both lazy to explain anymore again. But this time, i took the road less traveled. I didn't ask her to calm down. I said: " Well, we can still be friends. ", and she agreed with a bit of sadness at first. So finally, we managed to break up. No one died, or wanna to die, no cursing each other, just be normal friends from now on. And we both live happily ever after.

THE END

My Feelings
At first, i still had no feelings yet. Because i'm still very tired and bored due to the war of brains with add maths. But, at night time, i feel that i;m very empty, and boring. So, i break my rules, and went playing a few rounds of Dota with my friend, YIk Loong. Feel much more better afterthat.

What's next...
Nothing else will happen, both of us just focus more on studying now, and get ready for SPM.

Moral Values
Harkworking- we should be hardworking at this time and put more of our attention on studies now.... blablabla... and so on...

I just want to say...
I think many people wanted to say something about me, good or bad, i'm sure there are some of it. Do always feel free to give some comment to me. I will read it as soon as possible for sure.

Thanks for reading.
Good Luck...

1 Malxy ... ...sia

Merdeka... Merdeka... Merdeka... ...

Almsot merdeka for 52 years, malxys still calling chinexe - cinx babx, and chinexe still calling malxys babx hutan. Just as usual, Malxysia boleh. Everything boleh. H1N1 caused how many deaths, and yet they still said the situation is still "under control". Just fine. Everyone still continues their lifes.

At last, Malxysia boleh...
Memang betul-betul boleh.

*take note:
Malxy(s) should not be refered as malay(s),
chinexe should not be refered as chinese,
babx should not be refered as babi,
Malxysia should not be refered as Malaysia.

Thanks again for reading.

《激励语》

《激励语》

一个人成功，
是因为他的计划跟得上变化。

Again...

Just writing something again.

That night, she said break up again. And said its real again. And, i was lazy to explain to her again. And, i asked her was she calm again. She didn't say she was calm down again. She was being a bit emotional again ( i think ).And we didn't managed to break up again.

This happened many time already. I'm almost starting used to it already. However, i still didn't feel like want to break up with her. But, am i doing the right thing? I think i need to be more strict to her. I think, i had given her too much space and freedom, and somehow, sometime she filled up all my space and freedom.

and again,
thanks for reading ... again^^
Have a nice day =)

<<静思语>>

<<静思语>>

没有事情是别人应该做的，
只有事情是自己应该做的。

This morning...

Today's a good day, shiny morning with a bright sun... And of course, with me... Writing something here.

This morning, approximately 10.16.52am(hh.mm.ss), my ❤ sent me this message,


All of a sudden, i felt that, does she cares about me??


My Feeling When I Get The Message
She feel that it is annoying that when she calls me, i didn't answer the call, is my bad. My goodness... I wanted to say to her:“你可以不要这么小姐脾气吗？这些不是我欠了你的。” But, i'm very sure, if i said that, she wil get mad again. so i didn't. I just send her a 静思语to her. Hope she can understands it.


Story Line
It started yesterday, she phoned me. But i was seeing a tv show, wasn't with the mood on chatting on phone. And yet, i'd still talked with her for about 10+minutes. We stops talking to phone because i had to go fetch my mom. After that, at night, when i was halfway brushing teeth, she phoned me again... I was like, bull's shit... Wat de".... Can't i have my time to just, ust even brush my teeth??? But i still, drop down my brush, answer the phone. I told her i was brushing teeth half way. It was about 12midnight. I told her to sleep, n i wanted to continue to brush my teeth. We said good bye to each other, and we ended the call. I think she feels a bit 不爽when she call come, and i got no time to talk to her. And the next morning she sent me the message above.


Thanks for reading. Have a nice day^^

<<静思语>>

<<静思语>>


欣赏他人，
就是庄严自己。

Exam, exam, exam....... Still exam...

Exams coming, and more and more of it is coming.
Had anyone of those preparing exam papers' teacher or lecturer ever realize the use of exam???
Real use of exam is to test how good is a student on a particular subject. But now, its like, a test for students to find out who's good at cheating without letting the teachers know.

Isn't it a waste of time n the materials on publishing those exam papers for nothing ???
And, isn't there is some other way, other then exam to test how good is a student ???

To all teachers, questions of mine,
1. Does a student good on every subject is a good guy???
2. Does someone not good in exam has no good future???
3. Does the things we study so damm hardly, in SPM, STPM, and so on, bla bla bla whatever
"M",but surely isn't stands for money, those thing, is it really that useful in our future?
4. Why those politxc people still ''mimun kopi o ''? They study moral last time, they should
know ''minum'' isn't right, why they still ''minum'' ??
5. What does the result of exam mean to you?? How good your students at memorizing??
6. Who's the one started exams? Does he knows how much poeple will 不爽 him?





*take note: ''politxc'' is not refered as "politic", don't act pro ok =p
*take note2: Above statement is just my feelings, didn't mean to say any bad things of other people in exams.Thanks for reading. Have a good day^^

<<静思语>>

<< 静思语 >>

站在半路，
比走到目标，
更辛苦。

Reasons of putting pork-is-tasty...

Reasons y i put dis title, of cos not jus dat i like pork...
De main main thing is, i hate malxys.
But not every malxys. Just most of it.
Sometime, i really dun know why the malxys so irritating. There was one day, i was at de other side of a over head bridge. During that time, there were a few mal?ys, dun noe wat"s their problem, keep on shouting for NOTHING... Oh my buddha...I really got no idea of why are they doing it. N there are lots & lots more thing dat they did made me hate them. Maybe not all of them, jus some of them. Cos there are stil some good mala?ys out der, maybe i hvn meet them yet.




*take note: "mal?ys" is not refered as "malays", dun so perasan.

My First Post....

Hi to all,

my first time ever using blog.
请多多指教。
Zzz.......