To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow...

Life's brief candle, by William Shakespeare

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day

To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

Sometimes, I really like this poem, and it describes my current situation very well.

I tried to tell my boss, also my uncle, I will work for him for more weeks, and after that, I will take my results, and prepare stuffs about my future studies and all that. But, he said wait till I get my results first, before that, still continue to work for him. Aw... when only I can end all these? I'm really starting to feel sick of it. Now, I'm also starting to feel that my life is meaningless.

The more time I spend my time on this job, the more I feel that my family is very fake. Brothers and sisters of my dad are arguing with each other because of money. It still doesn't matters if you all wanna to argue about it, but can you all please don't drag me into it. I know non of your pass-time-stories, and I'm not interested on it. But one thing I'm very glad is that my dad didn't involved much in it.

Still very confused now... Don't know what to do is the best.

《静思语》

《静思语》

吃苦了苦，
苦尽甘来。
享福消福，
福尽悲来。

While Everyone are Counting Down Days to Chinese New Year, and I am...

Chinese New Year is coming sooner and sooner. Many of us is getting more excited everyday. Thinking of those 'angpau's we can get, fire cracker, gambling with groundnuts and so on.

While Everyone are Counting Down Days to Chinese New Year, and I am... Counting how many days left I need to work this month. I had marked down every day I worked for this month.

February 2010

(Monday as first day of the week )

Week 1 ( 1 - 7 Feb )--> Worked for 5 days.

Week 2 ( 8 - 14 Feb ) --> Worked for 2 days, 14 Feb maybe taking off, left 2 - 3 days to work.

Week 3 ( 15 - 21 Feb )--> Happy Chinese New Year.

Week 4 ( 22 - 28 Feb )--> Office reopen on 24 Feb( Wed ), left 3 days to work.

Total days need to work on this month---->12 - 13 days
Total days worked in this month----------> 7 days
Total days haven't worked in this month ---> 5 - 6 days

Really starting to feel sick of this job. The main thing that make me feel sick wasn't the task or difficulties I faced on my work, is the complicated relations. I think my job in the office will be a lot more easier if i have no any relatives, or any special relations with the people n the office.

Here's some introduction about this relations. Its quite complicated. My boss, is my uncle ( dad's 4th brother ). Everyday, my aunty ( dad's 2th sister ) fetch me working. Both of them not that like each other.

Examples of some problem I faced recently, and I really hate it. My uncle asked me to asked my dad when does him feel free to come over my uncle's office to do some banking's stuffs. So, after work, when I reached home, I passed the message to my dad. My dad told me he was free on 14 of Feb. Obviously, 14 of Feb is Chinese New Year. Okay, never mind. A few days later, my uncle ask me when can my dad come over to his office, and i told him, my dad says on 14 of Feb he is free, and you all know what happens next. I don't see the need to mention what happened.

THE MAIN THING --> Why can't my dad straight away called my uncle and why can't my uncle straight away called my dad and discuss with him the date? Why need me to pass the message? Its really troublesome to be the middle man like this, and I am going to be a middle man for almost 2 months. I really had enough of it. I think I'm gonna quit this job on March.
I'm really sick of this job deeply.

Ask me out for tea if you want to listen more of these 'interesting' stories. I got plenty of it.

All contents are based on true life stories. Thanks for reading.

《静思语》

《静思语》

有求即多苦，
如一味的要求，
只为自己招来无穷苦恼。

Back to Basics is the Best.

Chinese New Year coming soon , I had bought some new clothing, and I'm sure many of us did it well too.

In this Chinese New Year, normally for tops, I prefer normal t-shirts, mostly in white. I wanna to try something new. I bought a few shirt that looks quite nice, and I liked it too. It wasn't my style, but I still bought it, just because I wanted to trying new things. It looks good on me when I'm in the fitting room before I bought it.

However, recently when I was trying it again in my house, because going out for dad's office's reunion dinner. I just don't know what the hell goes wrong. It just keep looks very weird.

In the end, I went to the reunion dinner with a normal white t-shirt with some graphics on it with a long pants and sports shoe. Just as usual. Only one thing special this time, I wore a diamond ear ring.

Lessons Learned
You are what you are. There is no need to be, or try to be special, because yourself is special enough. Just be yourself.

Thanks for reading. there will be more new posts soon.

No comment on this...

My salary slip:

( Click on the image to have a zoomed view. )

Working period:
Monday - Friday,
9.00am - 7.30pm.

Average pay - 3 Ringgit and Cents 81 Only per hour.

Any one having lower pay then me, and longer working period then me, please let me know. If there is really that someone.

《静思语》

《静思语》

去贪就简，
可使心灵得到，
无比的宁静与解脱。

Road could not be taken...

A very familiar title. But, still something different. Have a look if you feel free.

Spm had over for some time. Everyone start doing their own thing, some starting to take part time jobs, some going to college, hanging around with friends, etc etc, and starting to chose their own road soon.

Right after Spm, I had a few choices and some plans in my mind.

Here's where the story started.

My first planning is to take Form 6 and going for local university, and before i get my Spm results, i planning to work at a tuition center. I think my plan was not bad, and i can continue to walk on my road. But something happen... Too many things happened.

Around the end of December 09, the clerk in my uncle's office just fired her boss off. And one day, while I was having dinner with my family, including those uncles and aunts. And someone asked my uncle: "Last time you brought him traveling at other country before right? Your office is lack of a clerk right? Why don't you ask your nephew to take the job temperately. " And then, my uncle asked me to start working at his office on January. What the...

I tried to tell him, I had already interview for a job in a tuition center, but he said what can i learn in a tuition center? Nothing... And he called me to work there and learn to use Microsoft Excel and all those computer stuffs. So, i left no choice but to accept it, and leave the road that could not be taken.

As time passed by, I had been working at there for a month. Still not quite use to it. Many of those data are very complicated. I still tried my best to finish every one of my assessments and worksheets. I had to spend half of the day facing computer every Monday to Friday.

Just because he brought me traveling for a few times, does this means I had to help him when ever he needs? Why can't I chose the thing I wanted to do for the moment? I had been studying more then 12 years on the things which I am not that interested in. And now still ... fine. Now 1 month had passed, and I already can use Microsoft Excel well.
So, do I still need to do this job?

Recently, he also asked me, what I planning to study in future. I told him i wanted to take Form 6. And he said what for take Form 6? What for to waste the time to do Form 6. He can sponsor me to take college. But, I'm worried that, will there be a chance that in the future, someone saying this to me: your uncle sponsored so much on your studies, now's the time you help him back in his business. Many people will think that, why not? The business is already there, I just have to keep it running. The main thing is, I will be tied up forever. I will had to work for him forever no matter what happened. And if I didn't worked for him, there will be thousands of finger pointing on me.

So, I'm still quite confused now. Not sure which road is best for me yet.

Moral of The Story
Nothing is free. There is always a price of the thing you get. So, think wise before you accept it.

Once again, thanks for reading. Have a nice day.