Show me the $$$ ǝɥʇ ǝɯ ʍoɥs

Hope Which Only Last For 5 Minutes

2011-10-13T18:02:00.002+08:00

There's a girl, means a lot to me. Although she disappoints me a lot.

While today after school, something happened. She waited me and walked with me together.

I wasn't really very happy on it although I was hoping for it long time ago,

but at least, it made me feels a little relieved.

About 5 minutes later,

a guy came from behind, and they talked and laughed,

and walked in a faster pace.

And once again,

I'm left behind watching her talking and laughing around with other people.

Just when she fixed my heart a little, she breaks it even more.

Having the feeling of losing the thing while I'm having it.

What a day.

The end. Thanks for reading.

Wasn't here for quite awhile.

Still Have Fate On It

2011-02-26T00:41:00.004+08:00

It has been about a year ago.

Giving tuition on weekdays,

not doing it for the pay,

but for the experience,

communicating skills,

and most importantly

made quite a number of new friends.

" Hi teacher!!!",

greetings from my student in school.

( some of my student are studying at the same school with me )

It made me feels relieved.

Students still remember me

after quite some time.

Students and me,

saying Hi with each other,

nothing much, but why,

Even myself,

I seldom greet the teacher in the school.

Feels kinda shame of myself.

By the way,

let back to the main topic.

I started giving tuition again.

Had five Year 1 student.

Three of them are Indians,

and guess what subject I'm teaching?

Chinese.

Yes, I'm not lying.

They are really cute,

the way they pronounce the Chinese words,

the way they asked questions.

So cute, so clean,

without any hidden motive.

All they want is just happiness.

Teaching them are really much more enjoying.

Unlike the tuition centre I went last time.

Well, not to mention so much about

unhappy memories.

My new boss,

is a quite good person.

She is fierce, but cute,

and have a sense of humour too.

My pay was quite good,

so far everything still going on the right path.

And I still have the fate on teaching.

I know today's post is a bit long,

but words keep popping out of my mind,

and I just wrote them all out.

Thanks for reading.

Revolution of CNY

2011-02-03T00:24:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year everyone.

Another year has passed, and another year had came.

For me,

I'm not really in the CNY mood yet,

even though its beginning of a new year already.

My family,

especially my dad.

I don't know why,

why is he always the mood spoiler.

Going back hometown during CNY suppose to be

in a happy environment,

but end up rushing back,

and something was left at home.

Until just now still keep arguing, blaming each other.

What a year.

Revolution of CNY,

many youth changed.

Many of them seldom concern about the real meaning of new year,

their main concern is,

how much angpau money they can get.

While at the mean time,

Adults are so well behaved in front of others,

but many unseen stories in between it.

There are many silly arguments behind all those fake smiles.

People nowadays are very money-minded,

facing difficulties on tolerating with others,

very likely to hold really firm on

what they think is correct.

There are really many more things

I saw,

I realise,

but can't write it all out at once.

Give me some time,

I will work it out for you people

who enjoy reading about

my true feelings & stories here.

Thanks for reading, and

once again,

Wish you all had a real truly Happy Chinese New Year.

Its Sunday

2011-01-23T13:03:00.002+08:00

Today is Sunday, it's a normal and simple Sunday.

Just had sausage with bread,

some sliced cucumber,

chips,

a small drink

and some music for my lunch.

Just a simple meal,

on a simple day,

and it's

what I want.

Tidying up my messy bed after lunch.

Not to forget my desk too.

This are what Sundays suppose to be,

at least for me.

Getting things done in a slow pace,

just for today.

There had been rushing for

quite some time, since last holiday.

Finally, now

I had some time,

my own time

for myself.

Not spending too much time here

for today;

Still got half a Sunday

waiting me to enjoy it.

Thanks for reading.

Wish you had a happy Sunday.

Difference Nor ?

2011-01-14T13:03:00.005+08:00

Its a brand new year,

I saw many things changed.

People, market trend,

way of doing things,

and even myself too.

Well, physically I didn't changed that much.

Still having similiar hair style,

same specs, same smile on the same face.

But, my thinking are different now.

I can feel that the way

I judge the state of affair are different.

All of a sudden, I think that

everything happens for some reasons,

or at least an objective.

We need to see it in different views.

There are always complicated details in a simple things.

But, why?

Why can't we just make it

more simple, and easier.

Why are people keep demanding for more,

but seldom commit to others?

Why can't they be satisfy and grateful of what they have?

What a simple thing, and

there are so many things related into it.

For me,

I will continue doing the things that I think it right.

I will do things without asking for pay back,

but it doesn't means I will do everything.

I'm not being selfish,

it just I got nothing to lost.

Thanks for reading,

Have a nice day.

《静思语》

2011-01-02T00:41:00.001+08:00

《静思语》

人若能减低欲望，

生活上

便没有什么值得计较。

New Year, New Aims

2011-01-02T00:04:00.002+08:00

I realized and learned a thing at the end of last year,

That is not to be so persistent.

Things will not always go according to what we planned.

Besides,

we won't able to get things we want most of the time,

because everything is interrelated to each other.

Too many conditions, too many backgrounds...

What we can do is just to manipulate us,

so that we can keep our pace with the change.

Year of 2011,

an important year again.

Will be taking an exam,

which decides where will I be for the following years.

I know its really crucial.

I will give all out, and do the best for it.

I said it, I meant it.

Another aim of this year is,

I want to say goodbye to Mr Lonely.

Really need someone,

which we can share everything with each other,

joy and sorrow...

Okay, that's it for now.

Gotta sleep. Good nights people.

Well, I know

2010-12-05T21:58:00.004+08:00

Well, second camp had just over.

During this time, all of us need to write

our feelings,

some significant things happened on that day, and

pass it up to the teacher at the end of the day.

I wrote my feelings and things I wanted to present on my journal

and, from teacher's comment,

I can feel that its encouraging me to do better.

However, things that mentioned,

I'm already doing it most of the time, I'm not trying to be proud here.

They also mentioned, behind every success person,

there are sorrows which other people don't know.

I guess, I am facing some of it now.

The following camp,

not much focus on learning new things,

but to gain more experience.

I Will Be Myself

2010-12-02T00:50:00.003+08:00

It has been for some time,

keeps on doing things that

I'm not so happy with it.

Just because they asked,

and I had to get through so many things.

Yes, I do learnt things, gained new experience from it,

but, I think I can learn it with some other happy ways.

Never mind,

from now on,

I won't keep doing things that people asked me to.

I will think before I take any action.

I will not keep on tolerating other people.

The one that will not care what other people thinking about me.

Yes, this is me, the real me.

The happier me..

End of the post.

Thx for readin'

Hav'a nice day.

At Home At last

2010-11-28T22:37:00.008+08:00

At last,I'm home.

Just went for a training camp. I'm the assistant organiser of game session.

I take part in most of the activities.

Basically, my job is to

prepare stuffs for following lessons,

make sure things flowing according to schedule

and a little part of everything.

However, I still don't quite know why am I doing all of it.

Actually, I'm still not feeling that good, still not so happy at there.

Still feels lonely. Besides, I don't have a group. I'm a teacher already,

this made me even more lonely.

So far, I think the only reason

I'm going is just to test my ability on doing and managing things.

End of the post.

Thanks for reading.

Why am I doing all these?

2010-11-22T00:54:00.003+08:00

Recently going to have a few camps during my holidays.

Its a voluntarily job, where I worked as a teacher at there.

And these few camps filled up most of my holiday.

At first, I'm doing all this, because I know for sure its a good thing, its a right thing to do.

However, I'm starting to doubt about it. Why am I keep doing all this.

My friends keep asking me, but I can't give them an good answer which can satisfy them, and I can't find a good point for me going there either,

other then its a good thing.

For quite a number of years I had been going to the camps organised by them.

Teacher at there are friendly, but some friends at there make me kinda disappointed.

I really don't know why some people still so selfish at there, likes looking down on people which are not so 'famous', such as me.

C'mon, I didn't owe you anything.

Maybe this year is the final year I'm going to these camp at there, because end of next year I will be having an important exam.

The following year, I don't even know where am I gonna be.

Now, I will do all my best for the following 5 camps.I will really work hard for it, and the end.

By me, thanks for reading,

have a nice day.

MR Lonely

2010-11-01T23:51:00.002+08:00

I might be in a crowd,

I might be sitting by the table with bunch of friends,

but,

still feels loneliness.

I got no idea why this happened to me.

I had quite a lot of friends, but when hanging out with them,

I still feels lone. All of them sitting together,

while I always just sitting at aside, looking them laugh and chat.

It make me feel like I'm just a nobody that no one wanna to concern.

No one to depend on, no one to rely on.

Just doing almost all the thing by my own.

Thanks for reading,

has been in a negative mood for some time.

Relieved

2010-10-20T20:29:00.003+08:00

Today was a tiring day, but i felt a little relieved.

Yesterday,

The research and development stuffs, my group members had divided the job quite well, and they had some progression.

So, they can do it without me for the moment. Just hope that, they don't always waiting, and procrastinating.

This afternoon,

And, about KRS, it was a safe and nice day today. We don't have time for KRS's session. Besides, we can leave all the KRS stuffs till next year. Yeah man...

Now,

Maybe I'm still thinking too much for the moment. I really need some rest, stay calm, and not thinking too much.

I'm Really Stressed

2010-10-18T20:46:00.004+08:00

In charge of many things recently.

There are a lot of things need to be done.

Actually, many of it can be done by other people, but they just... somehow, like waiting me to do it, or plan it.

At the begining, I was able to get it all done.

Recently,

I'm really stressed. Having problems on getting on bed, seriously lack of quality time.

And, now...

I decided, to start letting go part of my works, let it done by others. Maybe things came out isn't that bad as i thought. Or perhaps, its my aim is too high. I wanted things to be done perfectly.

I feels lonely too. I felt that, I don't have someone to rely on.

Feels like I'm dealing with many tasks and prblems myself alone most of the time.

I need someone that can give me help when I needed it. Not those just saying one, I mean those really can give me help in a useful way.

Anyway, thanks for reading,

have a nice day.

Recently...

2010-09-24T16:16:00.002+08:00

Just don't know why, recently keep thinking lots of things.

All of it coming to my mind non stop... Mostly about future. About career, and things I need to own.

Future is really kinda scary.

A few of my friends said that, I think too much. I know it too, but i just can't stop thinking. I felt that many people, mostly are my family members, are looking up at me. I really feel stress, and end up eating lots of chips and tib bits to let me stay focus on the thing I am doing.

Hopefully, I can get over this as soon as possible.

Thanks for reading.

Quote of the day

2010-08-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

Quote of the day

Failing to plan,

is planning to fail.

Problems... ... To decide...

2010-08-31T22:57:00.004+08:00

All of a sudden, feels like my schedule are so packed. So many things need to be done in so limited time.

Feels like many duties n jobs given to me in the same moment. Sometimes its hard to prioritize too. I think I should give up as part time tutor or give less tutor class, but, I need extra income. Further more, I'm the chairman of Teens Cadet Society now, I need to plan a list of things.

Really need to think about it wisely. I'm not afraid of facing difficulties, but I'm afraid that I will make a wrong decision. As one decisions will linked to another thing.

So, sometime really having problems on deciding things. Really which I could find someone that can help me to decide.

《静思语》

2010-08-29T12:37:00.003+08:00

《静思语》

若能从物质的爱欲中跳脱出来，

心自然天广地阔，

无限丰饶。

I want it too...

2010-08-29T12:20:00.000+08:00

Hi, finally i start writing post again.

This morning, i saw a girl, riding on a Kawasaki KLX ( with "P", which means she is still around my age too ). Wow! i wanted it too. i want a Kawasaki KRR. I'm really satisfy even just to have it in 250cc. But, my mom said that i need to fetch my sister. So, at least i need to wait till my sister got her driving license, then only i can get a bike like those. Which means, i still need to wait at least two years. On the other hand, the good thing is, i had a car now. Maybe it's is old, but it's still in a good condition.

Moral of the day

We can't get things that we want all the time. So, it's best we appreciate what we have now.

Thanks for reading. = )

I will try to update my blogmore frequent.

My Blog is dead...

2010-06-28T20:31:00.000+08:00

Sorry everyone, will not printing blog until I had a laptop or netbook...

The feel just ain't right writing blog when people stalking beside....

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow...

2010-02-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

Life's brief candle, by William Shakespeare

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day

To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

Sometimes, I really like this poem, and it describes my current situation very well.

I tried to tell my boss, also my uncle, I will work for him for more weeks, and after that, I will take my results, and prepare stuffs about my future studies and all that. But, he said wait till I get my results first, before that, still continue to work for him. Aw... when only I can end all these? I'm really starting to feel sick of it. Now, I'm also starting to feel that my life is meaningless.

The more time I spend my time on this job, the more I feel that my family is very fake. Brothers and sisters of my dad are arguing with each other because of money. It still doesn't matters if you all wanna to argue about it, but can you all please don't drag me into it. I know non of your pass-time-stories, and I'm not interested on it. But one thing I'm very glad is that my dad didn't involved much in it.

Still very confused now... Don't know what to do is the best.

《静思语》

2010-02-09T23:47:00.000+08:00

《静思语》

吃苦了苦，
苦尽甘来。
享福消福，
福尽悲来。

While Everyone are Counting Down Days to Chinese New Year, and I am...

2010-02-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is coming sooner and sooner. Many of us is getting more excited everyday. Thinking of those 'angpau's we can get, fire cracker, gambling with groundnuts and so on.

While Everyone are Counting Down Days to Chinese New Year, and I am... Counting how many days left I need to work this month. I had marked down every day I worked for this month.

February 2010

(Monday as first day of the week )

Week 1 ( 1 - 7 Feb )--> Worked for 5 days.

Week 2 ( 8 - 14 Feb ) --> Worked for 2 days, 14 Feb maybe taking off, left 2 - 3 days to work.

Week 3 ( 15 - 21 Feb )--> Happy Chinese New Year.

Week 4 ( 22 - 28 Feb )--> Office reopen on 24 Feb( Wed ), left 3 days to work.

Total days need to work on this month---->12 - 13 days
Total days worked in this month----------> 7 days
Total days haven't worked in this month ---> 5 - 6 days

Really starting to feel sick of this job. The main thing that make me feel sick wasn't the task or difficulties I faced on my work, is the complicated relations. I think my job in the office will be a lot more easier if i have no any relatives, or any special relations with the people n the office.

Here's some introduction about this relations. Its quite complicated. My boss, is my uncle ( dad's 4th brother ). Everyday, my aunty ( dad's 2th sister ) fetch me working. Both of them not that like each other.

Examples of some problem I faced recently, and I really hate it. My uncle asked me to asked my dad when does him feel free to come over my uncle's office to do some banking's stuffs. So, after work, when I reached home, I passed the message to my dad. My dad told me he was free on 14 of Feb. Obviously, 14 of Feb is Chinese New Year. Okay, never mind. A few days later, my uncle ask me when can my dad come over to his office, and i told him, my dad says on 14 of Feb he is free, and you all know what happens next. I don't see the need to mention what happened.

THE MAIN THING --> Why can't my dad straight away called my uncle and why can't my uncle straight away called my dad and discuss with him the date? Why need me to pass the message? Its really troublesome to be the middle man like this, and I am going to be a middle man for almost 2 months. I really had enough of it. I think I'm gonna quit this job on March.
I'm really sick of this job deeply.

Ask me out for tea if you want to listen more of these 'interesting' stories. I got plenty of it.

All contents are based on true life stories. Thanks for reading.

《静思语》

2010-02-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

《静思语》

有求即多苦，
如一味的要求，
只为自己招来无穷苦恼。

Back to Basics is the Best.

2010-02-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year coming soon , I had bought some new clothing, and I'm sure many of us did it well too.

In this Chinese New Year, normally for tops, I prefer normal t-shirts, mostly in white. I wanna to try something new. I bought a few shirt that looks quite nice, and I liked it too. It wasn't my style, but I still bought it, just because I wanted to trying new things. It looks good on me when I'm in the fitting room before I bought it.

However, recently when I was trying it again in my house, because going out for dad's office's reunion dinner. I just don't know what the hell goes wrong. It just keep looks very weird.

In the end, I went to the reunion dinner with a normal white t-shirt with some graphics on it with a long pants and sports shoe. Just as usual. Only one thing special this time, I wore a diamond ear ring.

Lessons Learned
You are what you are. There is no need to be, or try to be special, because yourself is special enough. Just be yourself.

Thanks for reading. there will be more new posts soon.

No comment on this...

2010-02-03T00:10:00.001+08:00

My salary slip:

( Click on the image to have a zoomed view. )

Working period:
Monday - Friday,
9.00am - 7.30pm.

Average pay - 3 Ringgit and Cents 81 Only per hour.

Any one having lower pay then me, and longer working period then me, please let me know. If there is really that someone.

《静思语》

2010-02-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

《静思语》

去贪就简，
可使心灵得到，
无比的宁静与解脱。

Road could not be taken...

2010-02-01T20:45:00.000+08:00

A very familiar title. But, still something different. Have a look if you feel free.

Spm had over for some time. Everyone start doing their own thing, some starting to take part time jobs, some going to college, hanging around with friends, etc etc, and starting to chose their own road soon.

Right after Spm, I had a few choices and some plans in my mind.

Here's where the story started.

My first planning is to take Form 6 and going for local university, and before i get my Spm results, i planning to work at a tuition center. I think my plan was not bad, and i can continue to walk on my road. But something happen... Too many things happened.

Around the end of December 09, the clerk in my uncle's office just fired her boss off. And one day, while I was having dinner with my family, including those uncles and aunts. And someone asked my uncle: "Last time you brought him traveling at other country before right? Your office is lack of a clerk right? Why don't you ask your nephew to take the job temperately. " And then, my uncle asked me to start working at his office on January. What the...

I tried to tell him, I had already interview for a job in a tuition center, but he said what can i learn in a tuition center? Nothing... And he called me to work there and learn to use Microsoft Excel and all those computer stuffs. So, i left no choice but to accept it, and leave the road that could not be taken.

As time passed by, I had been working at there for a month. Still not quite use to it. Many of those data are very complicated. I still tried my best to finish every one of my assessments and worksheets. I had to spend half of the day facing computer every Monday to Friday.

Just because he brought me traveling for a few times, does this means I had to help him when ever he needs? Why can't I chose the thing I wanted to do for the moment? I had been studying more then 12 years on the things which I am not that interested in. And now still ... fine. Now 1 month had passed, and I already can use Microsoft Excel well.
So, do I still need to do this job?

Recently, he also asked me, what I planning to study in future. I told him i wanted to take Form 6. And he said what for take Form 6? What for to waste the time to do Form 6. He can sponsor me to take college. But, I'm worried that, will there be a chance that in the future, someone saying this to me: your uncle sponsored so much on your studies, now's the time you help him back in his business. Many people will think that, why not? The business is already there, I just have to keep it running. The main thing is, I will be tied up forever. I will had to work for him forever no matter what happened. And if I didn't worked for him, there will be thousands of finger pointing on me.

So, I'm still quite confused now. Not sure which road is best for me yet.

Moral of The Story
Nothing is free. There is always a price of the thing you get. So, think wise before you accept it.

Once again, thanks for reading. Have a nice day.

I am not myself? I am?

2009-11-13T11:41:00.000+08:00

(to-be-continue-part 2)

有时候，我真的不知道我是谁。不过，有时候，我觉得我很像小草。

小草是一个生命力很强并不怕风吹，不怕日晒，不怕雨打。连儿歌也唱着：“大风起，把头摇一摇- - - - - -大雨来，弯着背让雨浇”。俗语说：“野火烧不尽，春风吹又生”，就是指小草那不躯不挠的精神。

小草虽然有着令人佩服的精神，但却没有人知道小草背后令人流泪的伤心事。小草觉得自己没什么用处。生长在路边的小草还没那么惨。要是生在某家后院的盆栽旁就遭了。不被放在眼里就算了，还会很快的被铲除。日子就了,公路要阔建，路边的小草也被铲走了。现在只剩下森林可以容下一些比较幸运的小草。但在过一些日子后，政府要盖大楼，开发了树林。大树被翻种了，小草并没有。

小草虽然有着一点让人佩服的东西，但却没有人把他放在眼里，甚至就要到了一个连容身之地也没有了的地步。那，小草，他还会有目标，梦想。但他还会一直有要追求目标和梦想的斗志吗？

一个以经没有斗志去追求目标和梦想的小草上

<<静思语>>

2009-11-10T15:34:00.000+08:00

<<静思语>>

欢喜和感恩是消除烦恼的力量。

I am not myself? I am?

2009-11-10T15:09:00.000+08:00

I am not myself now. I don't know who am i now. Sometimes, i feel that i'm a book. I'm in a good place known as library. But, i'm packed among other books. Covering with glass on the shelf, having little air to breath with.

Some people will probably thinking that i'm insane now. U can always just press alt + F4 anytime if you are not interested on this.

I'm packed among other people of a kind right now, facing plenty of stress. I have some knowledge on me, just like a book. But, not everyone came to this library read this book.

Even worse, after someone read that book, they drawing all over that book or even tearing out pages from the book. Just like now, someone keep asking me to do those things that i don't want to, andit hurts my feelings. Please stop asking me doing all the things that i don't wanted.

When can i get out of all these...
(to-be-continue)

Written with sincere. Thanks for reading.

QUOTE OF THE DAY

2009-10-24T13:47:00.000+08:00

QUOTE OF THE DAY

When something goes down,
don't be upset,
because there is an equally proportional thing is going up.

There's Something Going Up Whenever There's Something Going Down...

2009-10-24T13:23:00.000+08:00

As you all can see, days remaining towards SPM is going down, and the books on my desk is going up.
Many of us facing SPM had started to felt bored of revision books and exercise books. SPM also had starting to made me speechless. Don't know what to say about SPM.

Anyone has a good description for SPM ? Well I have some.
>SPM is good for us, but is bad for us too.
>SPM is useful in future but useless in future too.
>SPM made us worried, but people around the one that taking SPM is more worried then those who are taking SPM.

I don't know what other people thinking right now, but i'm really hoping that SPM will reach and end faster. I'm really sick of books, and sick of my mom keep asking me to read books.

Thanks for reading.
Many more great post coming soon.
Good luck in SPM everyone.

<<静思语>>

2009-10-15T21:21:00.000+08:00

<<静思语>>

纷乱的心田，
开不出智慧的花朵。

When There's Sorrows, There's Joy...

2009-10-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

Todays, there is sorrow and joy in my house.

SORROW PART
I suppose to fetch my sister back from school at 6.45pm, because her school off on 6.50pm. As you can see, the clock at my house was 6.48pm. I went out late 3minutes only. It should be ok, not a big problem.
Unfortunately, just on that time, the clock in my house was run out of battery. Its about 7.15pm when i went out, but the clock displayed 6.48pm. So I'm late to fetch my sister. And she was quite emotional that time. Cause she study till late night yesterday, and wake up early this morning. So, she was in a bad mood, and when we reached home on 7.30pm, she cried a little.

JOY PART
Everyone in the house was laughing. cause everytime also we waiting for her. When going out, she always have something to do, like go toilet la, drink water la, eat sweet la, etc etc... Finally now is the time for her to wait. Hehe...^^ Only can said that she was really "dai sei" Haha ^^

The Feelings Back...

2009-10-15T21:01:00.000+08:00

My feelings to study finally came back again.

I starting to do additional mathematics in class. But its a good thing at least. Cause exams is around the corner.

Hope my parents will give me more support on this.

<<静思语>>

2009-10-06T12:14:00.000+08:00

<<静思语>>

改变别人，
不如先改变自己。

In Training of Being Last Man On Earth

2009-10-06T11:45:00.000+08:00

SPM coming soon, who on earth don't know that.

Yet, everyone still hanging out with friends, still seeing movies in cinema, going night market, playing computer games till late night and more. But it's a different story to me.

I really don't know why, why my mum not so agreed on doing these thing. Keep wanted me to study only. But,
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Mom,
Do u know that i'm starting to have communications problems with friends? The movies they talking about, i know non of it. When they talking about what they did during holidays, i got nothing to say. I just went out 2 times at night during the last holiday ( Hari Raya ). They went many places to play and "look see look see" , but i didn't, i couldn't go out, because i need to take care my stupid sister most of the time when hey go out. What have i done wrong? Why Cause of the SPM i need to be like now? I'm super boring at home, seeing my stupid sister. Now my home is like a cage to me, and my stupid sister is like a heavy load to me. She enjoys doing nothing, and i had to do almost everything she don't want.

Recently i was scolded by you, i heard what you said to my stupid sister when i'm in my bedroom. You said i was a "fei wu", what also don't know how to do, only know want to play computer, results so bad, after SPM can wait to eat s-h-i-t.

I was really sad that time. I felt that everything I done is wrong. Am i realy that useless? And how good is my results only considered good? What results you want me to get? Does the results meant everything? So, if i cheated in exams to get good results, then you will felt happy of it? Last time i was the 4th placing in class, you asked me to get 3rd placing next time. So when only you will be satisfied? What do you want me to do?
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Maybe, my mom know that the world's doom day is coming. So, she starts to train me to be the last man on earth. So that i can live and take care f myself when everyone esle are not there anymore.

<<静思语>>

2009-09-23T14:48:00.000+08:00

<<静思语>>

把握当下，
就是用心。

I've tried my best...

2009-09-23T14:36:00.000+08:00

Didn't write any post for a long time.
Because im trying to calm down and to control my emotions. Finally i managed to calm down.

Its all happened on last Thursday,
Account test paper, the subject i studied the hardest, and aim for quite high marks. But i didn't do well. Not because i didn't study, not because i did careless mistake. Its because i can't concentrate. The stupids malxys, at the Srx Setix, having singing contest while we having exams.

B-U-L-L- S-H-I-T-!!!

Their voices made till the hair of my hand all standing up. I can't think of anything during the exam. And im gaining more and more hatred on malxys. Some more say 1Malxysia. I think it should be 1Malxys.

I really hate them, its nothing personal, its just that hey made me hate them.

Thanks for reading. Rate it high ( if u can ) .

*notes:
*malxys should not be refered as malays.
*Srx Setix should not be refered as Sri Setia.
*Malxysia should not be refered as Malaysia.

<<静思语>>

2009-09-16T18:03:00.000+08:00

<<静思语>>

太阳光大，
父母恩大，
君子量大，
小人气大。

Study vs No Study, Pass vs Fail...

2009-09-13T13:08:00.000+08:00

One of my friends told me this i school during exams.

Aim: To study the relationship between studying and passing the exam.

First law of study
-->> Study = No fail [1]

From first law, we can get this equation -->> No study = Fail [2]

So we can conclude it as the following,

Study + No study = No fail + Fail
Study ( 1 + No ) = Fail ( 1 + No )
Study = Fail

Zzz....
So will you stil studying for exams ? Haha...

Thanks for reading^^

《静思语》

2009-09-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

《静思语》

“路”必须去走方能达到，
“苦”必须去受才可消除。

First weekend of trial exam...

2009-09-05T19:30:00.000+08:00

This morning, woke up on 10a.m. Mom and dad wasn't home. Just me and my stupiak sister.

I became a maid，〔男佣〕and a day-care〔保姆〕of my stupiak sister ( refer to the picture above ) for a day. I had to mop the floor, cook meals for her, fetch her here and there, tidy up the house and more.

Actually it wasn't that easy to take care of her and take care of the house. We really should appreciate our parents, especially our mother. Its not an easy job to take care us n\and the house for whole year long.

<<静思语>>

2009-09-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

<<静思语>>

最好的脸部保养品，
就是微笑与善念。

Exam can be fun and easy...

2009-09-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

Before i say anything,
I would like to to say thanks a lot to all those who sent exams tips to me, and other. You guys are the one makes other peoples' life easier. THANK YOU^^

Actually, you guys made less people to cheat during exams. Because, all of us already know what was the questions, and just memorize the answer and no need take take in notes or write it down on table. As a conclusion, tips for exams rocks ! ! !

<<静思语>>

2009-08-31T19:11:00.000+08:00

<<静思语>>

再好的机会，福报，
如不能把握姻缘，
一样会溜走。

Merdeka...

2009-08-31T18:54:00.000+08:00

Negaraku,
Finally, united for 52 years...
我爱我的国家，有家才有我，站在这里跟你... ...Ok ok, it's enough.

As a conjunction to national day, i will be using Bahasa Melayu for 1 post, just one.

Sebenarnya, saya amat cinta akan negara saya. Walapun saya tidak membeli barang buatan Malaysia, tidak ada bendera Malaysia berkibar-kibar di rumah saya, tetapi, sekurang-kurangnya, saya telah mengeposkan satu bendera Malaysia pada blog saya. Adakah sesiapa, terdapat benderan Malaysia berkibar di rumahnya? Lim beh rasa tak da la. Tapi tak pa la, perasaan cinta pada negara kita, ada dalam hati sudah cukup la. Haha...

Ribuan terima kasih kerana tuan sudi menuangkan masa untuk membaca pos ini.
Sekian, terima kasih.

Pork really is tasty...

2009-08-31T18:41:00.000+08:00

"Ellow, i want curry... ... ... With pork."
"Er... ... ... ok boss."

Yesterday, i went dinner with my grandma at somewhere near Sungai Long. There was a dish i remember it the most.

> > > " 招牌加哩咸鱼花腩褒" < < <

It tastes just like rendang babi. Taste very good. A lot better then rendang ayam. If can, i think everyone, except Islam(s).

QUOTE OF THE DAY

2009-08-30T01:06:00.000+08:00

QUOTE OF THE DAY

FAILING TO PLAN IS PLANNING TO FAIL.

Road not taken...

2009-08-30T00:47:00.000+08:00

Road not taken...
by jus me, not by Robert Frost.

Ep.2
Title: Again... ( Final episode)

Well, just as the title said, again, she wants to break up with me again. She said its real again. And we both lazy to explain anymore again. But this time, i took the road less traveled. I didn't ask her to calm down. I said: " Well, we can still be friends. ", and she agreed with a bit of sadness at first. So finally, we managed to break up. No one died, or wanna to die, no cursing each other, just be normal friends from now on. And we both live happily ever after.

THE END

My Feelings
At first, i still had no feelings yet. Because i'm still very tired and bored due to the war of brains with add maths. But, at night time, i feel that i;m very empty, and boring. So, i break my rules, and went playing a few rounds of Dota with my friend, YIk Loong. Feel much more better afterthat.

What's next...
Nothing else will happen, both of us just focus more on studying now, and get ready for SPM.

Moral Values
Harkworking- we should be hardworking at this time and put more of our attention on studies now.... blablabla... and so on...

I just want to say...
I think many people wanted to say something about me, good or bad, i'm sure there are some of it. Do always feel free to give some comment to me. I will read it as soon as possible for sure.

Thanks for reading.
Good Luck...

1 Malxy ... ...sia

2009-08-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

Merdeka... Merdeka... Merdeka... ...

Almsot merdeka for 52 years, malxys still calling chinexe - cinx babx, and chinexe still calling malxys babx hutan. Just as usual, Malxysia boleh. Everything boleh. H1N1 caused how many deaths, and yet they still said the situation is still "under control". Just fine. Everyone still continues their lifes.

At last, Malxysia boleh...
Memang betul-betul boleh.

*take note:
Malxy(s) should not be refered as malay(s),
chinexe should not be refered as chinese,
babx should not be refered as babi,
Malxysia should not be refered as Malaysia.

Thanks again for reading.

《激励语》

2009-08-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

《激励语》

一个人成功，
是因为他的计划跟得上变化。

Again...

2009-08-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

Just writing something again.

That night, she said break up again. And said its real again. And, i was lazy to explain to her again. And, i asked her was she calm again. She didn't say she was calm down again. She was being a bit emotional again ( i think ).And we didn't managed to break up again.

This happened many time already. I'm almost starting used to it already. However, i still didn't feel like want to break up with her. But, am i doing the right thing? I think i need to be more strict to her. I think, i had given her too much space and freedom, and somehow, sometime she filled up all my space and freedom.

and again,
thanks for reading ... again^^
Have a nice day =)

<<静思语>>

2009-08-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

<<静思语>>

没有事情是别人应该做的，
只有事情是自己应该做的。

This morning...

2009-08-27T19:30:00.001+08:00

Today's a good day, shiny morning with a bright sun... And of course, with me... Writing something here.

This morning, approximately 10.16.52am(hh.mm.ss), my ❤ sent me this message,

All of a sudden, i felt that, does she cares about me??

My Feeling When I Get The Message
She feel that it is annoying that when she calls me, i didn't answer the call, is my bad. My goodness... I wanted to say to her:“你可以不要这么小姐脾气吗？这些不是我欠了你的。” But, i'm very sure, if i said that, she wil get mad again. so i didn't. I just send her a 静思语to her. Hope she can understands it.

Story Line
It started yesterday, she phoned me. But i was seeing a tv show, wasn't with the mood on chatting on phone. And yet, i'd still talked with her for about 10+minutes. We stops talking to phone because i had to go fetch my mom. After that, at night, when i was halfway brushing teeth, she phoned me again... I was like, bull's shit... Wat de".... Can't i have my time to just, ust even brush my teeth??? But i still, drop down my brush, answer the phone. I told her i was brushing teeth half way. It was about 12midnight. I told her to sleep, n i wanted to continue to brush my teeth. We said good bye to each other, and we ended the call. I think she feels a bit 不爽when she call come, and i got no time to talk to her. And the next morning she sent me the message above.

Thanks for reading. Have a nice day^^

<<静思语>>

2009-08-26T15:34:00.000+08:00

<<静思语>>

欣赏他人，
就是庄严自己。

Exam, exam, exam....... Still exam...

2009-08-26T10:29:00.000+08:00

Exams coming, and more and more of it is coming.
Had anyone of those preparing exam papers' teacher or lecturer ever realize the use of exam???
Real use of exam is to test how good is a student on a particular subject. But now, its like, a test for students to find out who's good at cheating without letting the teachers know.

Isn't it a waste of time n the materials on publishing those exam papers for nothing ???
And, isn't there is some other way, other then exam to test how good is a student ???

To all teachers, questions of mine,
1. Does a student good on every subject is a good guy???
2. Does someone not good in exam has no good future???
3. Does the things we study so damm hardly, in SPM, STPM, and so on, bla bla bla whatever
"M",but surely isn't stands for money, those thing, is it really that useful in our future?
4. Why those politxc people still ''mimun kopi o ''? They study moral last time, they should
know ''minum'' isn't right, why they still ''minum'' ??
5. What does the result of exam mean to you?? How good your students at memorizing??
6. Who's the one started exams? Does he knows how much poeple will 不爽 him?

*take note: ''politxc'' is not refered as "politic", don't act pro ok =p
*take note2: Above statement is just my feelings, didn't mean to say any bad things of other people in exams.Thanks for reading. Have a good day^^

<<静思语>>

2009-08-24T15:34:00.000+08:00

<< 静思语 >>

站在半路，
比走到目标，
更辛苦。

Reasons of putting pork-is-tasty...

2009-08-24T15:12:00.001+08:00

Reasons y i put dis title, of cos not jus dat i like pork...
De main main thing is, i hate malxys.
But not every malxys. Just most of it.
Sometime, i really dun know why the malxys so irritating. There was one day, i was at de other side of a over head bridge. During that time, there were a few mal?ys, dun noe wat"s their problem, keep on shouting for NOTHING... Oh my buddha...I really got no idea of why are they doing it. N there are lots & lots more thing dat they did made me hate them. Maybe not all of them, jus some of them. Cos there are stil some good mala?ys out der, maybe i hvn meet them yet.

*take note: "mal?ys" is not refered as "malays", dun so perasan.

My First Post....

2009-08-23T18:42:00.000+08:00

Hi to all,

my first time ever using blog.
请多多指教。
Zzz.......